Saturday, December 31, 2005

Last post of 2005

Posting for the last time this year. blogged like hell throughout - even through the boards. Cannot believe that this was the year I survived the boards, turned eighteen, smoked weed, and took the biggest decision of my life - my career. Pretty good year for me actually, many great things have happened, but the fag end has made me realise something... weird thing is that I realised something I already knew.
All philosophies just try to tell you what the much talked about illusion really is - time, space, identity, existance, reality and/or all of the above and/or a combination therof. These are the kind of guys who claim to have a 'radical' or 'different' approach to the nature of things... blending science with spirituality. Less sane are those who worship stereotyped Gods without questioning the necessity or benefit of doing so. Point being there are certain things that motivate us... certain ideas and thoughts, probably mutating throughout our lives, but always there... some system that our thoughts, actions and bullshit adhere to.
All that is a motherlode of absolute crap. They say one must not look at the past, not be hung up over it, and instead look into the future, look at our potentials, attempt to fullfill our destinies.
Also bullshit. The future does not exist. Think about it. There is nothing there - all you have is your past. A pretty good teacher, has taught you everything you know. A good knowledge bank. Just because your past is not a comfort, you fantasize that your future will be - a totally futile excercize. We shouldn't be hung up on the future, will definately make our present miserable.

The realisation is this - your past is important - it has moulded and shaped you, your past is precisely what you are at the present - your past is your very identity. You shouldn't ignore it just because not doing so may make you sad or uncomfortable. Coming to the motivation, let everything in your past motivate you instead of some arcane philosophy. Seriously, can there be anything better than riding on NOTHING but your expirience... on NOTHING but EXACTLY what you are.

Guess that is how I am going to live out my years from today...

The present comes with a message: handle with care.

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